The train has left the station….

Imagine your life, and imagine  it as a train. Yes, you are the train. You have already departed on your life journey and you have to then decide where you intend to end your journey and how you want end it. In between your start point and end point you also decide which stations (stages of your life) you want to stop, and with each passing stations, your passengers (your friends), will come on and off. You stop by each station and pick up your passengers without knowing where they are going or where they are all heading to. They get in, they become part of your journey, and depart when they’ve reach their destination. Some do stay longer then others, but not everyone is able to follow you all the way till the end. They have other destinations that they want to go as well. So take a while to ponder.. how many passengers do you want in your train? what kind of passenger and how long? which stations do you want to stop, and how many stations do you want to stop? As they say..the journey will eventually end… and the train has left the station :)

Of something of really nothing…

Life, in many ways have different meaning and everybody has a different answer for it. I for one have not truly found the purpose of life, am slowly getting there, but come to a realization that the older I get, the more individual people around become. No more are the times where yum-cha and organizing group gathering is really just a phone call a way. Nowadays, it’s many many phone call just to be able to talk to 1 person. Life isn’t the same anymore, but in it’s own unique way, you don’t want it to be the same.

Sure there was good times, last time, but a lot of people have forgotten that you are suppose to change the way you enjoy life base on the way your friends and situation around you change. I know many of you all who yearns to do something different as they get older, but they are all just waiting for someone to make the initiation. I know lots who wants to do lots, but at the same time unable to make the commitment to do so. I know lots who when given early advance notice, says they are unable to commit to the time, and those who when given too soon notice, say they are unable to be spontaneous, and those who been asked to go for an activity don’t want to go, only to say that they wished they had. I understand where they are coming from. Although we have control of our time, most of the time, we don’t have control of it…I myself is guilty of complaining that no one invites me to anything, only to turn down the invites when it comes in. Life IS definately NOT the same as before, but it doesn’t mean it’s CANNOT be as fun!

We are all human beings. We breath the same air, but we all don’t exhale at the same time… and really, the only way to do what you want nowadays, is either do it yourself, do it with your partner, or do it yourself. If we wait, often in times, we just realised that the years have passed, and it’s towards the end of the year, and then we will only have time to do 1 or 2 things. Often else, we will just be re-buried with work. Work work work… is that what life is really all about? Or is it a challenge to find that balance?

What’s this post actually about? I myself really don’t know, but what I know is that I often ask myself if I’m doing the right thing? Am I travelling too much? Partying too much? Maybe it’s time for the next step? To be more responsible? I don’t know…I need reasons to give myself excuse to do things. Nowadays it’s easier. I travel to capture the soul of the place in my lens. It’s my excuse to travel more, sort of a comfort feeling to give myself reason. This post is another reason.

I sometime think I’m too structured. I need reasons for every action, and every action must then be rewarded by a reason. Having a final goal is my reason. I work, I snap and I dance. Each have it’s own reason and final goal & destination. It gives me reason to continue life. Oh yes, I’m guilty for booking another trip. That’s 3 trip in 30-day span. I’m going to see if I should pursue my photography goal. I’m not sure whether I will like it or not, but so far, I’ve received alot of comments support from my friends. Yes, YOU. Thanks so much for giving me the encouragement to pursue my passions. I enjoy doing it, and your comments do give me strength. Thanks, and once again I’m not really sure what this post is about, and it really seems to be of something of really nothing..

Lucky Friday the 13th

Yes. It was Friday the 13th yesterday and based on our life on earth, we are somehow screwed into thinking of that THE day as being negative / bad luck / something terrible will happen. Hold and behold, according to Wikipedia; Friday the 13th occurs when the thirteenth day of a month falls on Friday, which superstition holds to be a day of good or bad luck.. Now who ever always instituted Friday the 13th to BAD LUCK?? CMon’.. we already have enough negativity in our life, so should we all be positive for once??

 

I actually never knew that Friday the 13th was also a day with what they say “heavy rain with a possibility of some good luck sunshine“, and boy oh boy, was I really felt happy this time around. To breakdown my streak of circumstances (probably a compensation of the previous incident “The Trip We Almost Had“. It all begin 3 days ago when I was lack of sleep, one day trying to book my AirAsia free seats (Damn! Didn’t get it this time around, but my RM 70 Bali + RM 70 Philliphines is still on track!!!), one day coming back late after my 2nd round of Lady Gaga judging.. and the one day chilling out in Vietnam till late…

Co judge with Lady Gaga?

 

And on Friday the 13th.. may the positive energy flow…

#1 : Went to Vietnam to sort up some pending deals. Was given some leftover XBox-360 where nobody wanted. Thanks for the gift! I will make sure it is in good hands! Heck, the plastic cover wasn’t even removed..

 

#2 : Bought 3 new North Face bag from Vietnam. *Ding*.. a new light bulb just appeared. Ooooohhh.. I just love the possibility of a new interesting business ideas.

 

#3 : Great times catching up with Christian and Chong in Vietnam, back in the old days of Vietnam! Really felt good just chilling at the streets of Vietnam… Sorry didn’t follow you guys out after dinner, but I was dead tired, and know you know why I don’t drink, No NOT even beer!! Which you already know why… LOL!

 

#4 : Arrived back to office at 3pm on Friday the 13th, and had yum cha and heard the great news from Yew Jin, owner of http://www.carlist.my, hope his deal goes through. Exciting times are up ahead, and someone who I also respect for his passion in his business.  

 

#5 : Had a great time catching up with colleagues for our Birthday Break in Cafe57, Kota Damansara, lamb was scrumptuos, followed by staying back after work to catch up loose ends. Yeah! I like working with my colleagues and my company…

 

#6 : Was looking for a NEW watch for ages!! Never could have found the perfect one, but ironically, my mum is the one that found me the perfect ONE. She was the one that gave me my first Tag Heuer as well, and now my 2nd one. I love it! Thank you mummy. Love ya! *sob* *sob*

 

#7 : I had the best 10 hours of sleep for since quite a long time! Finally got use to my new place and was so tired over the week, I just zonked out. Felt good sleeping..

 

#8 : 4 lots of Maxis IPO…status… SUCCESSFUL! Woohooo… Feels like winning the Lottery.. Omg.. I can’t even win a lucky draw if there was 95% chance of winning, but this, I DID! Thank you Maxis and CIMB!! Everybody told me that we could only apply for 1 lot, but apparently NOT. I failed in my BLUE form, failed in my Maybank Bid, but bagged my biggest catch through CIMB… and 4 lots?? Awesome!

 

So today I commemorate yesterday. For “He who says Friday the 13th always refer to bad luck should refer to Wikipedia first!!” Hahah… Here’s to a Lucky Friday the 13th and many many more Lucky Friday the 13th to come!

KL Walk & the rest of the week..

Another week to remember by. Had my first spontaneous KL Walk, which just started as an urge to go to the High Court & Railway Station to take some photos. Was suppose to buy a new lens, but somehow didn’t have the urge to do so. Will probably only get a new lens once I decided to shoot people pictures, who or who wants to be my model volunteer?

It was a good experience. I truly enjoyed it. I initially had thoughts that I would be bored going around taking pictures, but lucky for a friend that tagged along, time passed so quickly we even forgot to eat. Kawan… Thanks for reminding me to minum Kopi, and thanks for tagging along for the shoot :)

This are the six(6) shots I like the most and the rest can be found on my facebook

 

 

“This is the one I truly enjoyed. The sun breaking through the tattered window lighting up the memories of the past. Where a great court once ruled, and noble men (and women) once pass, it’s now a rubble waiting for it’s destiny..”

So building photography is something I enjoyed doing, and my little mind wonders what’s next? Creative arts? Model shoots? Seems every photographer have pictures of models, but can I do something same but “not just another”?… Oh well, only time can tell, or maybe there’s a volunteer that is offering his / her services… *BIG hint Again*

And so the rest of my day was pretty pack with activities as well.. dalam kesimpulanya..

Monday - Saw GI Joe day.. watched DVD at home, coz haven’t fully recover from the Terry Fox Run (the previous Sunday)

Tuesday – Was Futsal day… played and played and didn’t really feel tired. Weird, but it was a good feeling. Went for yum cha after the game..

Wednesday – Was Judgement day!! (more like I Judge day!) 1st time I was asked to judge for a simple Lady Gaga dance competition. Was sooo much fun!.. was asked back to judge again this week. Yay!!

Thursday – Was matchmaking day. Tried to match my pal-friend, and my other pal-friend’s friend. Started out horribly, but ended up pretty ok. Now their destiny lies in each other’s hands…

Friday – Was chill day. Had dinner at home because my god-parents were in town, then went out to hang around in Plaza Kelana Jaya. If you’ve not been there, it’s a relatively nice, casual atmosphere (and if you’re lucky… live band), beside a lake..

Saturday – Was KL Walk day.. as explained above :). This was then followed by dinner in Tropicana City Mall, and then clubbing at Bamboo 9. My another pal-friend, had this friend who kept staring at me like want to eat me like that… but who cares… I dance with freedom :)

Sunday – Was BKT day..After that it was, shopping day and photo editing day. Just spend some time buying stuff in Pyramid and having dinner with my family, oh, at at 1am, moved into my new place.. Also did up a nice photo montage present.. :)

Are you a SCID?

My friend forwarded me an online personality test, and due to my short time-out at work, I was able to key in a few objective answers and the computer will miraculously tell me about me, YES ME! The one I tried to understand my whole life, but they;the computer did it in just 5 minutes. Magical.

Usually I only believe this stuff as much as I believe that the there are aliens in area 51, that the end of the world is coming in 2012, that someday we”ll all have superpowers and my work destiny is to sit and hope and make tons of millions of dollars just by clicking on some links…

Most of this stuff are always made up of a combination of thing that is TRUE and FALSE towards you (most of the time it’s 50/50), but because we are human beings and we like to think that people know what we think, we always believe the TRUE more then the false, hence I call this theory “The Believe of Horoscope”.

So I then decided to proceed with the SCID Personality Test, and the result is… *drum roll please*

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So, I sat down once again, to see whether “The Believe of Horoscope” is true for the SCID Personality test, and I would say that this is slightly different, although some of the facts seems true, but somehow, I would like myself to be in the other categories for some items. So, it’s not entirely FALSE either…, so in conclusion, I’m an ["I"], category, and my comments would be as follow :

• Value to a Team : I think I’m more towards category “D” – Taking Initiaitve
• Major Strength : Maybe an S or a C
• Major Weakness : Bingo!
• Motivated By : Okla.. acceptable
• Time Management : “I” for my passions and activities but more “D” when it comes to boring presentations! Ha!
• Communication : Best amongst the other options
• Emotional Response : Hahah.. sounds like making love man.. “High and lows, excitable”… haha
• Decision Making : Bulleyes.. Risk is my English name..
• Behaviour : Attacks are always the best form of defence
• Would Improve Effectiveness By : Pausing? How to improve if pausing??

So there you go… Some would apply to me, some are close to being applied to me and some are just something else that I want. Although I know that this might not be 100% accurate, I love doing them still. I always wanted to know the results, and what my life holds for me for whichever test I take. Thanks for a friend who shared the link with me, I enjoyed doing it,  and every good thing deserves to be re-shared : http://www.gregwiens.com/scid/ .

Enjoy? So are you a S/C/I/D?

The week that was..

Another week passed by so fast. Every day draws people closer to what people believe to be end of the world in 2012… a If it is, and even if it isn’t; does it all matter? Week has been hectic and fun and usual. Fun seems to be my daily word nowadays.. how’s work? Busy.. but fun.. how was your weekend. Casual but fun. How was sports? Tiring but fun.. Lolz.. Maybe it helps tune my mind so that it automatically blocks out any bad vibes that tries to interfere…

So how was the week? Started off normal, with my dance on Monday, had Fun! :P and then Futsal on Tuesday, which I then re-injured by arm and also had a cramp on my leg… ooohh, just the feeling of getting old. Nothing to it. Wednesday was Rakuzen (Jap food) day, Thursday was was… damnit, was so close to having the whole week mapped out on my brain. Noooooo… it’s a sign. Ok. Move on. Friday was dinner, followed by coffee bean, followed by a beer night and I stayed up till 4am! WowWww, let me repeat that to myself..4am!! Ehh… it’s not the first time I stayed up so late la (most of the time I’ll be stuck in the office)… but it’s been a long time since I stayed up so late in a club, most of the time I go back around 2-3am. And with every late night comes some new revelation of knowledge. I just found out it’s not that I can’t take beer, it’s just that some beer (ok.. so far only 1 beer brand) has less effect on me, and allowed me to extend my usualy 0.5 pathetic bottle cosumption to 1.5 beginner level, before my head beats to the sound of a thundering army… Wohooo, I feel accomplished,,, but that still doesn’t mean I enjoy beer…

Saturday woke up really early though, at 8am, not sure why, but that 1 beer brand made sleeping so much easier.. Went to watch “MJ – This is It” movie, and I must say I enjoyed it. It’s like watching the full concert minus the special effect (remember the immitation X-Men with the green background?), at so much more fraction of cost of the real thing! Value for value.. totally worth it. I mean cmon, give the guy credit, you can really see him pour emotion in his work and he’s a true artist! What more to relive the songs, and watching THE MAN at his helm is credible.. This was then followed up by some sleep & meeting up a friend for dinner, followed by Octoberfest, another trial of another beer brand, and called it a night at 12am.

Sunday was Terry Fox Run at 7am waking up, casual, no rules, just sweat it out and contribute to charity. Run however way you want, wherever you want, and however short you want. I did the 5km… What more to ask for leh? Had a great Yut Kee lunch after that.. always heard people talking about, but even after 1 year working around that are last time, I didn’t even step in!! How could I NOT.. I really didn’t do the Pork angels justice.. sorry sorry. Rest of the Sunday was rest, catching up on So You Think You Can Dance Season 6, dinner and snacks shopping.

A bit sicking now after the recent activity. Time for more naps… and Phew.. I think I need to blog more about my weeks, it forces me to remember what my week was, and suprisingly, it’s all still clear except ermm… Thurday.. damn, what did I do Thursday? Damn you Thursday..arrgghh. Anybody care to share some activity with me this week? That’s all folks, A new week begins, to the future weeks and the week that was…

Who dares follow me to Rainbow Waterfalls??

It’s been a long long time since I actually spent the whole Saturday at home, doing absoluately nothing but playing computer games and catching up with some long downloaded, stashed somewhere TV series. Really not sure why everyone is talking about True Blood, except that it’s like watching some soft porn movie. Breezed through a few episodes, but I think I’d had enough, heck, I’d even stop downloading Season 2 of it. Isn’t there anything else better to watch nowadays??

It’s been a busy last week, and I’m actually happy doing absolutely nothing! Last week was fun. Attended the Beyonce Dance Mob audition, and made the cut (You win a place to dance b4 the concert starts & a free ticket with it…) ! Was happy, but at the same time feels like prune amongst the grapes. Everyone there was like between 16-24 years old, and was rocking away! It was fun during the audition though… and I was so close to doing one of those stuff you’d only see in YouTube, but unfortunately the concert has been cancelled. Still have my hopes high for it being re-initiated again.. For all you people that is unsure what is dance mob is, KLCC was the first organized :

Went for Skytrek the last weekend for the Extreme Challenge. Another fun activity, relieving those commando moments and the “Olympic Run” feeling on the flying fox. Too bad the activity wasn’t SLR-able, as it’s not worth the trade of having see your camera drop 22 metres from the air in 2 seconds… but still happy that my trusty old Canon Ixus digital camera did the job.. Really recommended as part of the nearest, funnest thing to do in the city…

So what’s next?

They say there’s a place, long lost in time, tuck deep within the jungles of Pahang. Where tell tales of stories of ancient mystery runs deep, for whoever see’s the rainbow, finds the treasure. A place where cascading waterfalls, crashes from the peak, and during a certain time of the day, the colors of heaven opens up for all to see. I shall not speak more of this place, but Yes, paradise does exist… for my next outing.. Who dares follow me to Rainbow Waterfalls??

Talk Talk Updates…

I talk to a lot of people, and often people ask me questions which aren’t part of my daily conversation of “how are you, how have you been, how’s work, how was your holidays”. It’s a question where you your brain pauses and stop for a moment and ponder what to answer my fellow “question contributors”.

And in no particular order, below is part of my weekly conversation topics..

Is it possible for someone to make a business out of refurbishing and reselling the houses?
Errmmm… you can most definitely make money out of anything, even selling thrash to the rubbish man. Ok on a serious note, I really don’t know whether it’s popular here, but that’s how Bill Ransick (Apprentice Season 1 winner), started his journey as an entrepreneur (before he became The Apprentice) and in overseas, it’s possible to buy 2nd hand property, refurbished them and resell them for a decent profit. In Malaysia, I really have no idea, and yeah, if I had the money, why wouldn’t I just buy new properties and sell them? Errr… dunno wor.. passion I guess :)

What kind of charity would I want to do, once I’ve reached my career goal?
I would know when the time comes? I mean currently I do my small charity in life, donating $$$ to the temple, charity homes, but I mean there should be more then that right? Hmmm… does teaching other want to be entrepreneur be considered as charity? Or mabye, gosh, I don’t know… I’ve been working all my working years, and always looking to reach my career goal that I don’t know what kind of charity I want to do! Probably giving a chance to youths to get more from life?? (Does it count as charity?)

Then what what would you want to do say if you’ve all the $$$ the world?
Easy la… travel, update my blog, take photos and be merry..

That’s all folks… oh yah.. and advice to a friend..  “a negative mind always reads a positive statement in a negative way“. “Good Luck!”

You’re only as happy as your weakest priority..

Comparison’s is in our blood. We live not by sucking on human’s blood, but by subconciosuly feeding of a comparison to the thing’s that you have vs the thing’s that you want to have / people have. It’s a never ending cycle. We are happy one day, and sad the very next day. We say we aren’t but we are, we always try to look positive, but the devil that sits on top of your shoulder sometimes wins.

So I’ve come to a theory on why and what we would always compare on. Remember the game that we all used to play? Where we had to choose the priorities in our life and we had to rate this from 1 (most)-5 (least) ? Love, Career, Family, Friends, Money? I have a realization that this might not be the priorities in life, but more of the happiness of each of that sector in our life. It’s the list of which we based our comparison on.

We are always effected mostly by the items which we are unhappy the most vs the items that people have the highest happiness rating for, and we always envy them for having it. Even if 4 out of 5 items in our life is as happy as what we want it to be, the final item will alway be compared upon. So you want to know what do you want to improve in life in order of priority? You alread know don’t you? *smiles* Aren’t we all just so human?? 

So no matter how happy you are, you are only as happy as your weakest priority! Stay positive! Life’s short, you’re only as weak as what you think you are, so the solution, think happy thought and be thankful for the thing’s you can be happy about :)

It’s not me, it’s just my thoughts rambling the night away…

Nostalgia, a feeling of deja vu, a feeling of you being where you are but your minds seems to be stuck at where you’ve been. You know that the grass is always greener on the other side, but at the same time you still want to take a peek. Life until this point has been what you’ve created from it. It’s what you want, but at the same time you still want to know if the course of timeline would change if there are certain events in life you’ve tweaked. I need a time machine. But wait, why would I want one when I’ve reached a place where I wanted to be ?? Maybe I want to know if I could be in the same place without going through certain events ?? Is life like a computer game. In a computer game, the ending is always the same no matter which route you take! You save, load and restart the parts you want to retake… cool right? :)  Reality seems to mimic the movies more, you’ve all seen it ; altering the passage of time WILL always put you in a different situation. So if I was given a choice to change the past at the expense of changing the future, would I do it? NO, I wouldn’t want to do it. So if i wouldn’t want to do it, does this mean life is as perfect as I want it to be right now? Maybe, maybe not, and you’re never going to know. Damn.. living is tough! Hehhe…

The feeling of knowing that you are happy, but at the same time sad about things that have occured, but unable to change anything that has happened. You’re happy, yet you’re sad, and confused all at the same time.  The less thinking the better, which also leads me to another pondering. During long “downtimes” (like during massages, jogging, facial) when you’re awake, but yet at the same time have nothing to do.. do you actually think of things? Or does your mind wander to another happy place / world? Or is it just blanked out? 

Guess it’s late.. Darkness plays tricks of you. Funny. What am i saying? Guess it’s all the same.. well, It’s not me, it’s just my thoughts rambling the night away…

p/s : by the way, i’m not sure why i always have an urge to end my blog as what the topic title is. Maybe it’s easier to put a topic to my thoughts, or maybe it’s what people will have a thought off when reading my post, or maybe I just defied the urge :) :) *peace out*